I've been on a sightseeing trip for the first time in my life. And I discovered... that I'm not into sightseeing at all ^^'
It's not that I can't enjoy the view of a zen garden, the visit of a museum or just hanging out in a city I've never been to before... It's more that being in a place that is very famous and/or taking photos of it doesn't fill me with the sheer joy it seems to fill all the sightseeing freaks I've seen around (and Japan may well be the top factory of sightseeing freaks ^^')...

Had I been alone, it would have merely been a bitter disappointment. I guess I understand now what people must feel who discover at some point they can't appreciate art, music, litterature, etc. It's unpleasant to discover you are different from the mass (at least, it's always been unpleasant for me), but the real sadness in it is that there is a great pleasure of life that's forever out of your reach T_T.

But I went with a Chinese friend... and pretty much spoiled her trip because I was tired, depressed and disappointed, three mental conditions that turned me into a complete asshole against my will and despite my efforts. So I really feel guilty about it... And two days ago, I felt so bad, I thought I should never talk to anyone ever again... But then I met my new Japanese roommates (the school year starts in April, here), and I saw JYPE people I hadn't seen in months... And everyone was so nice to me... Nah, I just can't give social relationships up, neither in Japan nor anyone else, not even in another dimension, just no way XD ;)

But I still saw a lot of interesting things and took pictures aplenty that I will upload on my blog soon (not now though because I'm too busy with the beginning-of-semester-paperwork XD).

And hey, I've also discovered I really love Sendai!
I mean, I already knew I loved Sendai, but I didn't know if it was Sendai itself or just the Japanese city in Sendai I loved... Now, I know. I love Japan alright. But when I came back to Sendai, just by putting my feet on the ground of Sendai Station, I felt the surge of sheer joy I initially expected in sightseeing, and for the first time in my life I felt home in a place rather than by somebody's side... And in a train station, nothing less!

I really love Sendai. I really feel home in Sendai. I really wish I could settle here. Really.

大好きの仙台！